Tuesday, December 09, 2008

My first `Eid in London

My previouse Eid experiences, that were all in Egypt, wither in Fayoum, Maadi or Zayed, were full of joy and happiness. I Would feel the Eid spirit days before the actual day of Eid, we go out buy new cloths, see decorations in the streets, arrange with family to meet. On Eid day we would wake up early go to the masjid and decorate it, prepare gifts for the kids when they come to the masjid, then attend the prayer. My best part is when i get my `Eidiyyah (new money as a gift in Eid) from my masjid teacher and then sing some nashids in the masjid, see all the sisters and then go home to eat the lovely fatta with all the family that come to our place. This years Eid, I felt so depressed days before, because there is no Eid spirit, all decorations in the streets are Christmas stuff, most Muslims here doesn’t even know when is Eid some doesn’t even know that there is Eid. On day of Arafa I felt the spirit by fasting and knowing that Alhamdulilah and inshaaAllah Allah forgave my last year’s sins and the coming one, I went with my husband as well to buy gifts for the family and my husband bought me new phone, instead of the one I put in the washing machine :(. On Eid day I went to pray in the mosque, that was undecorated and no sign that it is Eid apart from Eid prayers that was made four prayers because mosques are small and can’t take all the numbers of Muslims, so the prayers were done four times. After the prayer I waited to see some of the sisters I know, and I found only two, we had a chat for a little while and then I left to go home, I searched the internet for an event for Muslims and I found this promotion about 1 Eid event. Just reading the promotion mad me wanna fly there and enjoy all the lovely things and feel the spirit of Eid like what they say in the promotion. Though the place was far and we drove for about an hour to get there, I was shocked by the state of things, and how Muslims are unorganized and uneducated about manners, personal hygiene and tidiness. I wouldn’t speak more I will just show you the pictures. there was an offensive smell in the ladies' room and kids nappies was allover the place, c'mon Muslims i think we know how to use the bins.
Student's leaflets and college stuff along with food left on the tables.
food left on chairs on the tables.
the stage that was most of the time closed with no performers or lectures and the women made a lot of noise that you wouldnt even hear the performer if there was a performance.
food left on the table agian:8
i think as Muslims we still don't know how to celebrate properly, though we need to be examples to non-Muslims but i think we should learn keeping our celebration gatherings clean, tidy and organized.
Silly Ellie

Thursday, December 04, 2008

I’ll Be There for you…Daaah

So no one told you life was going to be this way.
Your job's a joke, you're broke, you’re love life's DOA.
It's like you're always stuck in second gear,
Well, it hasn't been your day, your week, your month, or even your year.
But, I'll be there for you, when the rain starts to pour.
I'll be there for you, like I've been there before.
I'll be there for you, cause you're there for me too.

All of us at one point or the other tapped our feet to the tone, hummed some of its words or even sang along this song whenever we watch Friends, but have you ever asked yourself what does it mean to be a friend?, what you should do? What to expect from them? When to fight for them and when to let go? I started to ask myself those questions when an incident happened to me and I realized that I lost a friend of mine or let’s say that I didn’t even have this friend it was just pretence or a make believe. Lately I realized that friendship consists of two words, Friend and ship which means, in my opinion, that this relationship is like a ship if the two people on this ship didn’t make the effort, soon it will sink, one of them might try hard to keep it steady, face the storm and not be afraid of thunder but soon he/she will get weak and would leave the whole ship to sink. Upon realizing this, now I know that I was facing a lot of thunderous storms, dangerous ocean and tried to sail a ship I shouldn’t be on in the first place, I also realized that I left my ship, the ship I should have been in, the ship where my true friend was fighting to sail on her own. For those whom I forsaken our ship now I come back and I regret not helping you in sailing our ship, and not fighting enough for our friendship. For those who wasted my energy, time and feelings I regret knowing you and I regret the effort I put into something futile and something fake. But before standing back where I should be, I should say my friendship vows to those who mean a lot to me, to those who really were there for me: - If friendship means believing in them, accepting them as they are, I say now, I will believe in you no matter how crazy you might be and I will not try to change you, I’ll accept you the way you are.

- If friendship means not giving up on them, I say now, I’ll never give up on you, because I’m so fortunate to have you in my life.

- If friendship means not being afraid to say I am sorry, then now I say, I’m sorry for not helping you, supporting you, or showing how much I appreciate you.

- If friendship means trusting, then now I say, I trust you and I will not try to hide behind my foolish masks thinking I can make it without you, because the fact is, I cant, I cant make it without you, you mean so much to me, so please, forgive me and let’s sing a long.

I'll be there for you, when the rain starts to pour.

I'll be there for you, like I've been there before.

I'll be there for you, cause you're there for me too. - Soooooo Silly Ellie